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fourthefunmizer) wrote2025-06-15 11:41 pm
fourthefunmizer) wrote2025-06-15 11:41 pm
early teens
from the day we all met to the day we said our goodbyes youve both ruined me
you convinced me depraving myself of food and downing chemicals would make me loveable
you told me that sharp tools were tools and the soil was my lube
you made me think it was love and i believed you again and again and again and again
the tools were always in my hands though, the soil was just my home. and the depravity was always an option
i gave myself.
its just that one day when sharp objects werent enough the hole swallowed me and now i dont dare touch them anymore
my early teens was never meant to be experimental in the way you showed me, but being human was so feared i lended my hands and withered with age
you convinced me depraving myself of food and downing chemicals would make me loveable
you told me that sharp tools were tools and the soil was my lube
you made me think it was love and i believed you again and again and again and again
the tools were always in my hands though, the soil was just my home. and the depravity was always an option
i gave myself.
its just that one day when sharp objects werent enough the hole swallowed me and now i dont dare touch them anymore
my early teens was never meant to be experimental in the way you showed me, but being human was so feared i lended my hands and withered with age